It's 12:04 am and I am still up and thinking how should I write my first blog post. I am really a night owl. But being a mom, who isn't? Night time is the only time when I can sit down at my kitchen counter, sitting on my favorite bar stool, just to think about MY life. Yes, that's right, not my kid, not my husband, not my chores. Well, that's not true, I am actually still thinking about how my son should eat more veggies and how my husband needs to work out more. So yea, I don't have a life.
I thought being married has changed my life so much. But comparing to being a mom? Not even close. Jayden is our "accident baby" AKA "a blessing". I was a business student and ambitiously interning at a big investment bank when I first got pregnant . I wasn't planning on having a baby for least another 2 to 3 years. But Jayden just can't wait to come to the earth and meet his mommy-ME!
I still clearly remember the day we found out we were expecting. It was a beautiful summer morning. The moment that testing strip shows two stripes, my heart started pounding like its out of control. Then I saw my husband's hand shaking, he was so excited and so speechless the same time. Then we just went crazy and keep asking ourselves "Are we really having a kid?"
I had a OK pregnancy and a tough birth. I actually don't mind pregnancy because I think walking around with a huge belly is a kind of a fun and cute thing. I also gave myself the privilege to drive those cool handicap carts at the grocery store because my backache.( My husband thinks that's the most scary thing ever since he believes I don't have a "sense of direction" part build up in my brain)
My birth was so hard. I set my mind on doing a completely all natural birth at a local birthing center. So epidurals are out of the question. I was 9 centimeter dilated when I went into the birthing center, then 24 hours later I was still a 9! Plus I pushed for whole 4 hours. It turned out Jayden's widest part of head was coming out first-Military Position that gave me such a hard time.
Jayden has been such a bundle of joy. He's as cute as a doll. He is seriously the sweetest baby! He's 14 month now. The last 14 months were definitely my craziest months ever! I am constantly worrying bout how well he's eating, how much does he sleep, does he have any teething pain, how can I do better to teach/entertain him, is he too hot/cold, how to DIY natural remedies to fight a cold and etc! I love waking up to his little body lays right next to mine. I love cuddling with him. I love to play peek-a-boo with him. I love to hold his little hand. Jayden has been my little motivator to become a better person- more patient, more loving, more giving.
The same time, I also like to remind myself how much I love my baby and my family when I was buried with dirty laundry, messy house, and hungry husband. I constantly finding myself worry too much, stress too much and go crazy too much. I also finding myself doing thing like talking super loud in supermarket to myself saying things like "Should mommy get some wonton wraps so we could make wonton soup?" Even when Jayden is home with my husband Joseph. I am also starting to look for good piano teacher and research about preschools knowing full well my baby is only 1-year-old. Sorry baby, you hit the lottery of getting a tiger mother(even though my zodiac is Sheep) !
Enough with the ranting. Thank you for making me a mom baby Jayden, I love you so so much.
And Happy Mother's Day to all the fellow moms out there! You are doing great!